Reticent Man

I still have a lingering dissatisfaction.  I think it's because I just can't reconcile whether I'm suppose to be being productive right now.  On the one hand I feel I should be, because I certainly have many things longterm that need to be done.  On the other hand, there are so many confounding factors on the things I need to do, most involving money/job status.  I need to just clarify every situation so I can be at peace, able to relax and enjoy my free time.  I'm not going to plan for Ian's wedding until I get the invitation. At this very minute the only things I need to do are:
1) Carkey, which at this time I cant do until tomorrow, but should.
2) re: Grace, which I will do now
3) Straighten up, which I will do now