Reticent Man

Interesting Times right now.  Sunday I didn't get done nearly what I wanted to, but it still ended up a pretty good day.  I think my mood is dropping though.  Won in pro league, watched football, won in smallpub.

Poker Play
Energy OK
Mood poor
Body OK
Goals Unsure

On Monday starting right from the morning I could feel that sinking feeling inside of bad mood.  Sunday was a fairly good day in most respects.  Normally in the past in this situation I would have just stayed home and done nothing.  But I got myself to the gym and did the crossfit workout... a major accomplishment in my opinion.  Then I went and played poker.  Of course I started losing right from the beginning.  I hit a rush later and went uo about $5-600, but then lost some pots back to near even and my morale hit bottom.  I had to leave after 4 hours, but I had at least won $130.  Better than losing.  But my morale is really dead.  On the other hand this could be a rock bottom point where I come out of it even better than before.  I had a very vivid dream where I was writing a long letter to Fiona, explaining  all the various reason why she should pick me over some guy, I think Brian from Blair.  But at the end I remembered why I don't even want a woman like Fiona.  She was a mirage.  Maybe this is me expunging some deep down beta-ness. 

Poker Play B-
Energy Low
Mood Terrible
Motivation Poor
Body OK but pulled something
Goals Unsure

On Tuesday I feel better starting right off.  But I'm undecided as to whether to just continue right on track, or whether to embrace hitting bottom and take the old-fashioned personal day.  I cannot play poker unless I'm willing to lose the $2000 I bring.  I guess I'm palying it by ear.